Wonderful December

Today is a typical December day for northern maine. An easy day with flurries drifting in the cold breeze. Jessica is at a basketball game in Houlton today which I opted not to attend. I am one of those sensitive parents who has a hard time to watch my child's self-esteem flushed down the toilet by a coach with a chip on her/his shoulder. Mind you I am expert at this by now because I have watch as my oldest child took her licks. Now I have realized that there are some things which cannot be changed by a parent....even a well-intentioned parent. Right now being a single parent while my better half is deployed to Iraq has been an even more distressing concept. However, I continue to push on and one of the things I had to do in my personal life is to let go. Jessica will be ok, because she belongs to our creator and my savior, Jesus Christ. You see it is like this, you can hurt me, you can hurt my child, but ultimately you must answer to someone, and in this particular case, God. He does not sleep and He continues to renew my strength when I simply feel as though I have run out. He breathes life into me when I feel ...nothing. My mear existence is due to His grace. So I am moving to higher ground and by doing this I needed to step away from the basketball court and away from the thing that tempts me the most...parental intervention. See God corners the market when it comes to parenting...so who am I to argue. I love my girls, I love my husband, and most of all I love God. He allows me to overcome these trial through Him. I just have to merely "let go". God Bless You and keep you, Rita